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  • I hope it pans out for machine learning.

    I kept a dream journal every night for over a year. Meditated extensively during that time. And rarely looked at a screen. Prison gives you a lot of free time.

    I’ve also explored the closes eye visual space in drug induced lucid states extensively.

    This time article aligns with my understanding of Busdhisms Six consciousness model.

    https://time.com/5925206/why-do-we-dream/

    In Western language, we would call the eye consciousness the visual cortex. When our eyes are closed, and we’re in a relaxed state, we can see muscle memory practicing. Dreams. Visions if in an awake lucid state.

    The visual cortex stays active when our eyes are closed. Otherwise it only takes an hour for other senses to start recruiting those neurons.

    My dreams tend to be emotionally charged. So, dreams are, in my experience, a combination of the visual cortex doing busy work and unresolved emotional stuff if it’s there, or fun joyful stuff, if I’m feeling joy.

    I don’t know that it has a ‘purpose’ other than busy work and keeping the cortex wired together. It can be put to purpose, such as dream journaling and deeper self awareness.
















  • treefrog@lemm.eeto196@lemmy.blahaj.zonerule
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    4 months ago

    That’s a way to look at it. As a person with C-PTSD it’s not something easily dealt with or healed from because society isn’t that skilled at helping with it, and my brain was shaped by constant bullying and abuse for the first 12 years of my life. Saying I need to ‘heal’ is like telling someone with ADHD they need to ‘heal’. PTSD, for me, is a form of ND. I can learn better coping mechanisms and my symptoms can be more manageable, especially with better self awareness. But there was never a baseline of not having PTSD to heal back too.

    In other words, hypervigilance around toxic masculinity is wired deep into my amygdala, and that’s very difficult to change in a society that doesn’t have adequate tools or resources to help even typical PTSD. Maybe when MDMA treatment becomes available and affordable. I don’t really know the outcomes with it for child abuse.

    Anyway, bringing it up out of context when someone mentions having a good relationship with their (in my case) father, isn’t a trauma response. It would be petty jealousy. And while I have plenty of jealousy of NT people, I agree that bringing up jealousy when other people are having a good time, especially in such a petty unhealthy way, is a dick move.